Everyone, this is Abby, my parent's pooper.
I know a lot of you have been wondering "Where the HELL is Greenie?" I wish that I could say that I have been away somewhere restful, even tropical. The truth is, I've been here the whole time just trying to keep things together. I just haven't had it in myself to post at all. For reasons only I know, I haven't been able to talk about the disaster that is New Orleans too much. I had to stop reading about it, watching footage and listening to NPR. I've busied myself with daily chores and working at the nursery a couple days this week, taking care of Nick and getting ready for our trip tomorrow.
Following Nick's successful surgery, my parents came to town, their first visit to our house since I moved here. It was a busy weekend and it was great to have them here. Nick spent the majority of the time in bed, drugged slightly, dozing and playing a video game, with me checking on him frequently. I took my folks to see Snoqualamie Falls, the nursery and around our general neighborhood. We rented movies and pretty much hung out. It was so nice.
I think I realize what's happening to me right now. I've been so filled with anxiety and stress for the last little while, and now I'm on the other side of it all. After the surgery and my parents headed home, I pretty much have lost all energy. It's like someone has taken my battery out. Even though the stresses were not major life altering ones, there were so many things going on at the same time that I found myself totally wiped out once it was all over.
I feel bad that I haven't been more focused on the tragedy. I feel guilty that I'm about to go and spend a week on vacation, enjoying myself, having fun, relaxing. Life goes on though. What's happening there and what's happening here are so removed in some ways. It's not that I have ignored the whole matter, I do pay attention and I'm curious as to what the outcome of all this will be. I am paying attention to the criticisms and wondering what history will say about this event and the administrations involved. Mostly, I just want the powers that be to stop trying to play the game and just do a job. I could never be involved in politics. It just comes down to image and perception. The real issue is that there are living people who are suffering, who you are at that moment, president, FEMA director, mayor...all that is so devastatingly nonconsequential at that moment. I'm not a fan of Bush, he is not my president. His response, his language, his delivery of words...they are so detached and not someone who understands human suffering. I'm not impressed with his approach at all. No one can ever understand the office of president of the U.S. and it's demands without filling that role, I don't doubt that one bit. His tenure can not end soon enough for me. I think it's time that a woman take the office and bring back some intelligence, compassion, humanity and real leadership.
Ugh...this post is wearing me out. I'm tired ya'll. So very tired. I'm leaving now, going to get ready for our trip. I'm going to go recharge my battery. I think this will be the longest I've gone in some time without posting. See you when I get back.