So I spent the majority of the weekend outside away from the powerful lure of my sleek, elegant G4 and it's sexy monitor that holds me captive with it's vast 21" surface and color rendering that is to die for. I think that even Nicho was impressed with my self control and limited time in the back bedroom of the house.
Now that I'm sporting my first sun kissed glow of the season, I suspect that I'll be spending less and less time online and more of it outside. So if I haven't made comments or posts, please don't feel like I've abandoned the blogosphere, I promise to try and maintain some pressence here and at your local hangout too.
Last week, I got a little bitter about some issues that hit the media, one of those being the Texas legislature and their proposed ban against Gays and Lesbians being foster parents under the guise of 'protecting our children'. First and foremost, I want to thank all of you that commented and were so very supportive of the idea that I would be a perfectly good parent. I believe that too. Secondly, I wanna say that I'm not usually that sarcastic with a blanket comment like that. I'm usually a much more thoughtful individual when it comes to defending rights etc.
I'm always chastising Nicho for lumping Christians as a whole into one bucket, because it certainly is not true that all Christians are the same. The same is true for the good people of Texas, I know that there are people there who believe in a fair and equal standing for all members of this country. One individual who reminded me that people are capable of change or acceptance, is Andrea, who commented on her traditional values and beliefs, but was willing to accept the fact that just because I'm gay, doesn't make me any less of parent. It reminded me that people are able to adjust their levels of acceptance. This is something that I have always believed, something that I try very hard to hold onto. My belief in humanity is what keeps me from slipping into the angry homo mode.
As a missionary, I spent a great deal of time meeting all walks of life. At first I thought my sole purpose was to change these individuals, convert them to my faith's way of thinking. As time went on, I found myself struggling with the approach of my senior missionaries. Something in me was so conflicted by what we were trying to do. At some point I became a senior missionary and I had more control over our (my companion and I)approach. Instead of drumming the same old script, we found ourselves becoming invested in the lives of the people we came into contact with. I was in the South East Asian program in Georgia and spent almost a year working with Lao speaking people. I didn't know a drop of Lao and neither did my companion. We had no knowledge of Lao culture or social interactions. It was the toughest assignment of my mission, but by far the most rewarding experience of my life.
Instead of focusing on a message, we learned to focus on getting to know and understand their perspective on life. In a short amount of time, we found ourselves embraced by this group of individuals that are forever a part of who I am. The lessons they taught me have shaped who I am today. I never thought that their lessons of struggle and survival, of starting over in a foreign land and finding a new way of life would ever have any bearing on me at that time, but I have reflected on them constantly through out my life as I have struggled against obstacles or hurrdles.
While I know that we currently are dealing with so many social and moral issues here that seem bitterly unfair, even unjust, they cannot compare to the attrocities that are happening everywhere as I type. I know that I'm fortunate to have the liberties that I do, the freedoms that I enjoy. I know that I'm wealthy beyond many both spiritually and monitarily.
I want to believe in humanity, I want to have faith in you and your ability to open your minds, in your ability to open other people's minds to the idea that we are all part of the same society; that we all contribute positively as well as negatively. We can't all be the same or we risk losing that diversity that makes life rich and fulfilling. The image of a tapastry or a flower border being all the same color and same texture is boring and lacks visual appeal, but when you throw in other colors and textures that compliment one another you see how they accentuate the best parts of the other. People are no different, because of the love I received from the Lao's, they brought out those facets of who I am and enhanced them. I can only hope that I was able to do the same for them in some small way. I cannot imagine that I gave them nearly as much as they have given me, for it has lasted for more than 10 years now and still I am able to pull from that resevoir of love.
So when I hear about the sanctity of marriage, the safety of our children it's hard to not feel like we are stepping backwards, but I remind myself to have faith in humanity, to trust that what is 'RIGHT' and 'FAIR', all things that are 'JUST', will prevail...eventually. We all have an obligation to lead by example, nothing is ever gained by throwing around words of hate and intollerance. So Texas, I'm sorry for being intollerant and mean spirited towards the good people who reside there. I believe in you too.